ANOTHER DAY!

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 18:47:47 GMT

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-kayte-

dont look back at what ya cant change right?

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 21:14:43 GMT

Brandi and i tried on some bathing suits in target!

damn her and her HUGE BOOBIES. lol

matt

aww. they both look so cute.

ok we tried to take a group picture.. but it came out bad.... so we tried again...

that was bad too... so we gave up

hahaha matt passes out on the bathroom floor... cuuuute... lol right

brandi and i were tired as hell so we went back to her house the next morning and sat around....

ooooh what fun! twas a fun night. VERY WEIRD. it was gross, fun, hilarious, odd and EXCITING! lol. i've also come to the conclusion that i suck. but i cant change. and that sucks too. but frdkuvhjkbvh. yeah catch that? alright.

well christmas is coming... and im excited butkinda not really? i never have a "special someone" to celebrate the effing lovey dovey holidays with. christmas, valentines day, whatever else... ew screw those holidays. BUT im excited for it to get cold and winter break and being with me friends. have girly time. bon fires. eating bon bons with brandi. seeing my breath. WOOT. i shall spend it with kayleigh. jessica. madeleine. brandi... when she comes home :(. nicole. melina. and whoever the hell else :)............. :)..... yay. im not too sad. well i am. but i cant help it and i dont want to make it worse so ill just FORCE myself to be happy... even though im ALONE, i'll be happy alone :) oooooh the free life. i think it's the life for me... not even like i LoOOOOve it or anything... it just is the only way kayte can live.... lol. but last night i couldnt sleep and wrote like 4 pages of random kayte sad feelings and today i woke up and felt much better. no more sad. minus the fact that i woke up LATE today! but the rest of the day was pretty freakin awesome. and I DONT KNOW WHY! it was though. oh yeah! so THE show is tomorrow! boys night out, emery, from first to last, roses are red.... and hmm idk.. yeah. IM SO EXCITED! yaaaaaaaaaay. well enough of my blabbering and irdsfjghdfjkgv-ness....... <3 adios

-kayte-

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 20:25:31 GMT

ok so now im here with brandi <3.

uhg. it's already saturday.

tonight is the last night to go out and do stuff before school.

seeing as how i have to go.

my goals for this weekend have NOT been accomplished but it's been fun with friends.

i feel like laying in bed and listening to sad music.

gosh that sounds horrible.

so i guess ill make plans. :(

not the plans i want.

but they'll have to do.

-kayte- </3

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 20:14:54 GMT

well yesterday brandi came over at like 5:30 and we went and picked up kayleigh and some clothes, came back to my house got dress and we were off to amanda's!.......

thennn we got to amanda's and hung out, finished getting ready and... drank "water"? lol yeaaah

THE CREW!!!

so then we all got with our rides and we were off....

ooooh yes... you know you love that picture. sunglasses at night is awesome.

then we got to the groove and you can figure the rest out by yourself.... it was so much fuuuun!

then we took kayleigh home and me n brandi went to my house and i felt kinda sick. so i layed down. then we went to meet kayleigh... and we had to walk... so our journey began....

the end.

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 21:20:53 GMT

woot woot... well it was fun. here are some pics from tuesday...

ok well thats all for now.

bluh </3

-kayte-

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 19:12:34 GMT

heyyy. well wednesday night me and kayleigh ended up going to the t/c with jessica and hangin out cuz she was sad :(. we heard that song "run" by the snowmobile. aww it's so good. and kinda depressing. then we saw alex and colin. they rock. and we went to best buy and ulta and target annnnd... oh yeah.. bed bath and beyond. twas fun. we stole lipgloss bathing suits, sunglasses, stress ball? lol kayleigh was stressed ok?!? then yesterday was thanksgiving so i woke up and helped cook everything and then at like 4:30 my family came over and we ate. it was fun. but my family can never stay in one room without arguing. bluh. so then after dinner brandi called and we talked then we decided it'd be fun if she came over. sooo she did. and we went to walk around and we went in the cool empty apartment and smoked (ciggs). and then kevin came. i took pics but ill upload them later. sooo then we left and we didnt wanna go home so we were like, hmmm what to do.. so we went to kevins and got a bottle of vodka? lol idk. then we had no more ciggarettes so we went to 7-11 and stalked out some older folks and then they made ME go ask. so i went up to some random guy.. asked, he said yes, i gave him money, and he bought us ciggs! lol then we went back to my house. then craig called so we went over there thaaaaaaat was cool... lol no it wasnt bad. so me, brandi, kevin, craig, tommy, and john chilled. then kevin left at like 1 :(. then we hung out a little longer. then john left and me and craig and brandi went to get kayleigh. mwahaha supriseee. lol woops. but her and yibette were walking around cypress springs sooo then we got them and craig took us back to my house. thennnn we went to the c.s park and hung out, then i took kayleigh and yibette home. then me and brandi went to sleep. it was a pretty interesting night.

lately i've been in this really weird mood. and it sucks. and idk what to do. jkfghvduif. it's like... a mix between sad, comtemplative, lonely, shitty, but yet kind of happy. IDK WTF IS GOING ONNNN! im loosing my best friend but gaining new ones. the last time i hung out with nicole was like... 2 months ago... :-\ idk weird. but oh well, things change. i knew this would happen. high school is so crazy and fsoguhvedfibuh. yeah. but i've been hanging out with kayleigh a lot. she is sooo awesome! and so much fun. i can actually be myself with her, and do the stuff i want without her being like :-o and same with brandi. she is super cool too. <3 see... i have awesome friends.. and that's why im happy but anything that has to do with just me... it's sad. when im with my friends im happy. when im not im like. uhhhhhg. it sucks. and i miss madeleine. :( i feel bad cuz what i did wasnt cool. but.. idk.

who knows when this will end....

-kayte-

*im melting in your eyes*

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 20:16:41 GMT

HELLO! well im at my girlfriends kayleighs house right now. we're listening to drop it like it's hot.... hell yes. lol. hmm yesterday i didnt go to school. bluh. so then at like 5 kayleigh n daniel came over and i was looking like shit. so i took a shower and then we went to the florida mall. that was fuuuuun. and we made wishes in this coool store and some lady sprinkled glitter on us. :) i hope my wish comes true. thennn daniel dropped us off at kayleighs and no one was home so we rode her sisters scooter like losers lol. it was CRAZY. we went to davids but he wasnt so home... so then we went to amandas house and hung out for like 30 minutes. then we came back and HUNG THE FUCK OUT. then i went home. yep. then school today... with all 10 people that went.... grr i was so alone. how sad. brandi wasnt there... nicole wasnt there.. daniel wasnt there... kevin wasnt there... ashly wasnt there... megan wasnt there. katie wasnt there... so yeah just about everyone wasnt there. GAY! you people need to go to school. 0:) and now im at kayleighs... but i already said that.. gosh i sound like im connected to her at the hip lol. hmmm. that could be cool though... she could share some of that ASS!! hahaha lol <3 and idk what im doing tonight. brandi's gonna come over i think and we are gonna live it up cuz kayleigh's leaving for A WHOOOOLE DAY. jeez. ok well im out. -kayte-

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 18:54:22 GMT

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i feel like crap. last night me and melina went to kevins house... hmm. so it was me melina irish and kevin. ok well let me start at the beginning....

me and melina played a game of pool before we drank at all. that was fun fun. then we went and played darts... melina kicked my ass... then we got some drinks and sat on the porch and kev and irish were in kevins room listening to music. sooo then they came out and we hung out... im estimating irish ran into the door about... 10 times? lol yeah. hah, me and melina had an evil plan and they kept trying to figure out what it was.. mwahahaha. then me and melina and irish went and played a little game of drunken pool. and melina fell on the floor. hahaha. idk wtf i was doing. yep... good clean fun............................................... lol. ummmm yeah. then melina did the evil plan but i didnt. :-\ ehh. how sad. and melina threw both of their shirts in the pool! haha and kevins sunk! wtf kind of shirt sinks?!?! then irish went in the pool to get kevins shirt.. lol if he was sober i think he wouldnt have done that lol. kevin was making fun of how me and melina smoke so then later on he tried to teach melina how... lol? hmm well the rest of the night i can actually remember is censored.... and a little odd. but oh well. it was still fun. then me and melina came home and had a drunken-emo-depressed-strange-random talk on the playground. lol and melina couldnt walk down the playground stairs. usdhgvsf hahaa. well... idk guys... CRAZY. but i <3 melina... hahaha good fun.

-kayte-

p.s...... i still feel sick... and woosy. lollllll BLUH

:)

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 20:48:58 GMT

WHY HELLO! im back. MWAHAHAHA. i went to school today... eh fucking school. i missed 2 classes though cuz i was in the office FOREVER.. it was dumb. yesterday i was supposed to go to school but me and nicole and daniel went to planet smoothie and panera and then decided not to go. so we went shopping and got pedicures (haha) and ate and stuff. it was FUUUUUN. we felt like the chicks on laguna beach lol. cuz they're always sittin there getting pedicures. lol we rock. so today was TOO bad i guess. i got to school and saw sean james!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! awwwwwwwww omgosh i missed him like you dont know! <3333. and kevin thought i stayed home but i suprised him during lunch :) <3. and ralphie... silly kid. i missed him too! gosh.. i really do need to go to school more. well now i have to. but anyways!... hmmm im bored and super excited and idk why. but i was thinking.. i wanna live at the beach. :) kelly is moving to palm coast.. i dont really talk to her but i read her journal.. and now i feel like a stalker cuz im talking about her moving like i know these things personally.... ok so im done. i think kayleigh and daniel are coming over tonight to watch the oc... but idk.. i know daniel is and HOPEFULLY kayleigh can. cuz i miss her :( man i need to get my own computer. bluh. and i havent talked to steve or mitchell in like... 3 weeks. it's so terribly sad. uhg. well. and so yeah.. this morning i got to school exceptionally early and it was cool. everyone was like :) KAYTE!! :) and i was like oooo i feel so loved. and amanda came and saw me! she's super cool. and kori too. i love my friends and today is an exciting day. :) <3 sean kayleigh brandi daniel nicole melina amanda kori ralphie kevin <3 awww well im out

-kayte-

p.s. my guy situation is THE WEIRDEST... lol (nicole)lolllllll

p.s.s. i was going to say something else here but i just forgot.... fuck...

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 21:57:28 GMT

omgosh it has been forever since i have updated. gosh. it has been SO MUCH FUN lately. last last friday i went to the tchs football game with kayleigh and brandi. and i saw cody and david!!! :) <3 then we spent the night at kayleighs annnnd it was sooo fun. saturday me and brandi and kayleigh tanned and chizzilled. thennnn saturday night madeleine and kayleigh and brandi spent the night at my house and we snuck out and went out with dustin and eric and some nikkas. and yeah. classified info goin on there. then we went to craigs for a little then to daniels. then gurdy took us home. :) thanks gurdy. thennn sunday mad went home and me pb and vs (lol) went to waterford. fun fun. nothing during the week then yesterday i went to the t/c with melina and david and it was fun. yep. n i saw james. :) he's so cool. and today nothing. melina is coming over later and she's spending the night then tomorrow is the beach with cody n david!! woot. well i gtg. ill write later and maybe post some pics of tonight n tomorrow.

-kayte-

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 02:56:46 GMT

bluh im... i dont even know how i feel. friday i went out to eat with my family for my cousins birthday then went over to kevins and then came home at like 1. hmm then saturday i went shopping. then came home and daniel and jessica came over :-D!! and we left to go to the taking back sunday show. it was paaacked. but it was awesome. jessica got in 2 fights. crazy girl. but i love her. then after the show we went to get a drink... special way of getting powerade... lol gosh. then we stood around and went to the parking lot and guess who was there?! adam lazzara... yes. :) i thought i died and went to heaven. so we went over to say hello and he signed our tickets. i love adam as much as... anything. lol. so we followed him to downtown then ate pizza with him! it was sooo freakin amazing. gosh. best day ever. then sunday i went to the florida mall.. even though i didnt feel good. then monday i went out and about and to the doctors cuz i had strep throat or whatever. and i was wandering aimlessly around myspace and found this {seeming to be} cool kid. i read one of his blogs about falling in love. aww it was nice. love... pft... :-\... one day. then today was nothing big. went to the voting polllls and now i have a sticker that says i voted :). i went shopping for new sheets and bathroom stuff and it was boring. ralphie made a real assinine comment today. ever since our last argument he's been dumb. so oh well. and now im here. woo hoo. im gonna go watch tv about who's winning... bush so far...

-kayte-

p.s. :) [crush] <3

love love love

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 22:06:50 GMT

this one is public cuz i want everyone to be able to read it.

hey hey hey. today was a PUH-RITTY good day. i was thinkin about how awesome my friends are. not my GOOD friends but like people at school and stuff. like nicole martinez. she is awesome and i love her. she is super nice and like a big sister. Lilly (on my soccer team) is really nice and helpful and a really good modevation. Tristan is so cute and nice are caring. awesome person. Ashly is nice and really pretty even though we dont really talk.. yeah. heather is so nice and pretty and im glad we get along now. kayleigh is really nice and we used to be friends in 7th grade..idk what happened?!? she is sooo beautiful and nice and fuuuuny! and kelly is pretty and i have nothing against her. her taste in music and how much she knows is admirable. i love ralphie to DEATH and i dont think he quite understands. cuz some people are like "i love you" whatever. and i have done that before and not really LOVED them. i think that has happened to ralphie before so he doesnt believe me. or something? thats the thing i came up with. but i really do. and i will foreverrrr. and idk what is going on with ralphie but i dont need to be nosey and know everything. ill just try to make him feel better. and nicole martinez is .. sheesh i dont even know how to explain it. AMAZING. she is so great. i want to make her feel better also. i could never be on a side. EVERRR! you're all amazing. (if you arent mentioned in this entry it's prolly cuz i have already established you're fucking great!) (mad, brandi, kevin, james, kasey, etc.) <3

-kayte-

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 01:36:47 GMT

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 21:48:38 GMT

my feet hurt

and my back

:(

blah

today wasnt too bad of a day.

just tired -_-

ok im done.

-kayte-

p.s. props to kayleigh lol

im BAAAAACK lol

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 00:17:02 GMT

:-D YAAAAAAAAY! i love kayleigh cuz she pimped my... journal. lol THANK YOUUUUU! so yeah. im back to livejournal by popular demand. lol yeah but today was a pretty good day. some stuff was super gay. but whatever. it's all good. soccer was fun today. looove it. and today was bruce's birthday. yaaay. cake. even though i had nothing. all i ate today was a poptart hmm. strange. well there is a lunar eclipse tonight! thats sooo cooool. :) hmm well i lost my train of thought.. so idk what else to write. hmm maybe ill write more later. bye!

-kayte-

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 20:21:10 GMT

ewww my journal got fucking ugly somehow.... ehhh im gonna fix it soooon folks! but yea.. ive been writing in my xanga... but i still have this one... hmmm which one shall i use? what do you think? fun
-kayte-

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 20:39:50 GMT

hey you loooosers that are still reading my livejournal! i got a newwww one! xanga.

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 23:32:33 GMT

im in a bad mood, i kinda just wanna be alone n listen to emo music. my stomach hurts from being nervous idk why im even nervous or what. it used to happen a lot. i need to take something.. some med. my family is saying they want to move to california. what's with that? no idea. whatever. maybe a new start would be good. the only people i would miss is nicole, mel n brandi. gettin to know brandi is really cool. but yea. i might miss cam too. well id miss everyone. but idk be able to part from them. dont think they'd care. blah. im out

*me*

:I miss you:

::if i was smart i would run away::

uh muh guhd

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 11:50:04 GMT

ahh! it was HORRIBLE! yesterday after about 8pm everything went DOWN! including me... no literally. well i went to daniels n hung out with daniel n nicole n kevin n that was really fun but as me n nicole were walking home from daniels i just got in a bad mood n i felt like blaaaaaaaaah. so then we got to nicoles n shes like oh greaat.. i left my hat at daniels. n she couldnt leave so i was like ok ill go get it n i asked her brother if i could use his bike n of course the asshole says noooo n i was like fuuuck. so i took his lil gay longboard/skateboard thing n i was doin good til about half way there when i hit a rock and went FLYING through the air. great yea i know. so i was pissed off. n i couldnt breathe n my arm was bleeding all over the damn place n i got up n got back on n finished my journey to daniels. so i got the hat n daniel gave me a paper towel for my arm n everything. then we drove me home {cuz im scarred for life.. never riding a skateboard again.. lol well maybe one more time} so yea then im chillin at nicoles n her dumbass brother walks in n was like saying i couldnt stay... n im like umm who the fuck are you? i am basically family. he's sooooo dumb. so then he went n woke her mom up n she started yelling n me n nicole are like ommmmmgggg. it sucked. so then we talked n about 2am her bro comes in again n was like KAYTE HAS TO GO HOME >:o... n we're like WTF?!?!?! its 2am!!! no go away!! so he went n woke her mom up... again.. n now she was pissed n said that i had to wake up at 7am to go home when she goes to work. CUZ ZAK IS A FUCKING... GRRRRRR idk. that kid needs help. so here i am... 7:44am n im about to go back to sleep... just thought id write this stuff. i cant wait til nicole can move in with me n be amancipated... one more year! PRAISE GOD! oh yea guys... im also moving. yep.. my mom has finally decided to part from this old nasty house {lol not that nasty} but yea.. idk where to... down the street? out of state? out of country? idk. but yea.. this is damn long for someone who is pissed off... sad... hurt... sore.. in pain and tired.. yea they are all along the same lines but whatever. im out..

..Kayte Hanna... lol {married to cam}

p.s nicole played doctor n wrapped my elbow.. so now it is like... STUCK straight with 400000 layers of gauze on it lol... she cracks me up!

p.s.s one more bad thing is i found out ralphie is going to the show.. so no church.. oh well.. life goes on i guess. peace

IM BACK!!!!

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 21:46:33 GMT

Heeey people! I haven’t writtin in here in so freakin long cuz my internet was being gay and I didn’t feel like writing so yea… I took it outta my profile so you wont waste your time clicking on it. But anyways… life has been pretty goood. Uh Friday I went to the t.c just like every other Friday with Nicole n met up with brandi n Kristen n Kevin n other people then went driving around with Tj n Nicole n Logan n Erik n we went to McDonalds n some FAT ASS cop pulled us over n was gonna give Erik a $160 ticket but he forgot…? Don’t ask the guy was a little STRANGE! Yea so then Nicole came over n spent the night n we sat around n ate n laughed our asses off {ya know, the usual stuff} then the next day we did nothing I think… I don’t remember what I did Saturday but Saturday night I spent the night at nicoles house n Sunday morning ralphie went to church with us on fathers day… it was just us 3… no father lol so idk the point of that but it was fun… the service was on sex… niiice. So then Nicole n Ralphie came over n we hung out n then my cousins came over n we had caaaake.. yumm! Then sophie came over to hang out n we talked n ate n so then Nicole went home at like.. 9pm n me n sophie n ralphie went to some ladies house n ralphie jumped on the trampoline and me n sophie went swimming. So then we went back to my house n sophies dad came n picked her up at like 10:45 n sfter she left we took ralphie home n it was like 11:00. n later on I couldn’t sleep so I got online pretty late n had the greatest convo with melina lol I love her! Then yesterday… hm Monday… what did I do… oh yea! My LAZY ASS slept till… well really late.. im not gonna tell you guys cuz you’ll be like… damn. but yea so I did basically nothing til like 7 then brandi came over n spent the night n we were in like.. solitary confinment or something cuz we just sat in my room for 6 hours n didn’t eat or pee or ne thing.. just sat n talked.. it was crazy. So then today we woke up n played hi-ho cherry-o.. lol it was great n we talked more n got online nnn then we walked to Nicoles house n scared her… hehe then nicoles mom flipped cuz she’s weird like that n then me n brandi walked back to my house n we saw Daniel n Kevin. So yea we came back to my house n then brandi’s mom came to pick her up and she left. Oh yea n as she was walking down the driveway.. she tripped… hahahaha.. yea I saw that brandi!! Lol… yea man… it was pretty freakin awesome though. N tomorrow im supposed to go to youth group with Nicole, Brandi, Ralphie n April... well April doesn’t know that yet but im going to her church lol. Then me n Nicole are gonna spend the night at Brandi’d house! Whoo hoo! Tap dancing with tacs on our shoes! Yea cool stuff! Well that’s all the stuff I have done but as far as people/feeling wise… im not sure if james is mad at me. I think he is… n I have heard he is. But he says he isn’t. idk… I swear he seems pissed.. idk hopefully it’ll be better. N im talking Daniel more. Man… we stop talking a lot… that’s not cool… ooooooooh well. So ill try to write in here more often… but I cant promise ne thing! :-\

…..Kayte….

p.s- I am marring Cameron… BACK OFF PEOPLE! 0:-)

::when it comes to relationships im the dumbest one::

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 18:47:38 GMT

hey people! havent wrote in here in a couple days! well not much has gone on. last night me n nicole stayed on the fone til 6am talkin about DEEP stuff. stuff we appreciate n friends n god n it was great. it felt good. soo i went to sleep at like 6:02am lol n i woke up at 1:20 i think then i took a shower n here i am! talkin to ralphie! finally! lol i missed that guy! oh n thanks for the comment? lol well tonight i am going to tj's baseball game... the sexy ass tj. then to the t/c then to nicoles house to watch a couple movies! ok well this isnt very long... but idc... ok adios!

~*kayte*~

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 03:46:30 GMT

oh yea i forgot to tell you all that me n nicole played nicole's mash/idk game on the mirror in the bathroom and figured everything out... ah its all so clear! lmao... love ya coley! wow... and nicole n jeff.... hehe... this is gonna be GREAT!! lol no really...

yo!!!

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 03:25:36 GMT

HELLO ALL! i wrote an entry like.. day before yesterday n then it got erased! gur.. i was so ad but oh well.. so ill update ya.. last night i went to the emery show with nicole, james, daniel, franny, wesley n johnathan, n we met jessica n her friend up there n some other people. IT WAS SO KICK ASS!!Hawthorne heights played first, then emery, then alexisonfire, then silverstein! it was soooo awesome for h.h n emery me n nicole were up from n people were pushing us into the stage and oh man... my thighs were hurrrtin... but it was sooo worth it.. n after emery was done i got a pick from devin... the guitarist/vocals! then i fuggin dropped it... i was like oh my god... n i flipped... but then i was like uh hey... i dropped my pick cuz im a dumbass... can i have another one? n he laughed n gave me another one... i was like WHOO HOO!! so after emery me n nicole left the floor n went to hang out in the bar area and the band members from h.h were out there.. n the guys from emery so we hung out n talked with them n i had such an awesome time!!! n me n daniel talked at the show! glad! n it was BY FAR THE BEST SHOW EVER! thank you james for taking me :).... so we drove home i sat in the trunk with james.. it was cool... then we stopped by 7-11 on the way home n daniel n nicole had $2 together so they bought the biggest slurpee there and shared it with me! ((thanks guys))soo they dropped me n nicole off at nicoles house n we took showers and ate and read magazines and talked and then after her mom n bro went to sleep we decided to bust out the liquor.. so we did... n yea... i personally was trashed... idk about nicole.. i fell asleep on the living room floor.. then the bathroom floor.. n i pissed like 400000 times n nicole had to keep waking me up n draggin me to the bed. uhg... i dont even know why we got drunk.. just me n her... but we were bored n had a great night.. but were talkin bout depressing stuff... so we each drank a mudslide.. yummm.. then had like 6 shots.... crazy... so then we went to sleep at like.. idk when.. n woke up at 3:30... fuckin hangover.. n i was sore from the concert... then we ate n then my mom picked us up n we came to my house then i drove (yes me in the driver seat) around with nicole n my mom to get hair dye then nicole dyed my hair a pretty dark brown color... n i was kinda nervous.. but it came out real good... n nicole left at like 9:40 n i have just been doin nothing ever since! but now i have a headache.. blah! but overall it's been a FUCKIN KICK ASS WEEKEND!!! n i hope i can make it an entire kick ass week!!! i think i can do it! whoo hoo!

!!!KAYTE!!!

::i just wanna be a babe for once::

hellu!!

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 02:24:57 GMT

maaaaan! well me n cam broke up today. if it's for good.. im not sure.. but yea... we're friend so its cool. it wasnt a bad break up. n now im single for who knows how long. n im perty happy... didnt talk jaaaames all day today... where'd he go? no idea... ok well this isnt long but oh well... later!

...Kayte

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 10:53:59 GMT

wow... tonight was the weirrrrdest mutha fuckin night! ok well i went to james n johns yesterday n we baked a cake that turned out... well it was broke lol... n watched paycheck.. (pretty good movie) n ralphies neighbor called....? yea idk guys... that kid was crazy. so yea n they wanted someones fone number so after about an hour n hanging up like 4 times i gave it to him. then ralphie called me n it was good talkin to him. he's a really cool guy! love you ralphie! (yea adam be quiet, he is) anyways... i came home at like 5 or 6pm? somethin like that then i was sooo tired so took a nap n woke up at like 12:48 am and couldnt go back to sleep so i got online n nicole got on n i talked to her for awhile.. then adam IMed me n we talked/argued (like usual) and blahdy blahdy blah. so now it it 6:43am n i have been up ALL FUCKIN NIGHT LONG!!! NO SLEEP!!! n yea im not as happy as i was yesterday morning... now im just confussled and mixed up but the happy is still in there... just a little covered up. I feel like i have 2 diferent realities of life goin on here. the one from yesterday when everythin is dandy n great n seems perfect n i felt relaxed n no worries... but there was always a part of me that was missing but i covered it up.. n now.. IT OPENED!! now i have the kinda of happy where i have to choose. There are two things that make me super happy in this world and right now i have them both but i can only keep one. im sorry if you're reading this journal entry n going "wtf is she talkin about" cuz i know it doesnt really make sense but if thats you... then just fuckin leave n stop reading.. so ne ways... yea.. i can only keep one of the happinesses. n im not sure which one i want. The happiness with friends, n family and a boyfriend that all my friends agree with and like. or the mysterious kind of happy... the kinda where i can start doing fun stuff... go to parties.. have fun.. fall in love... but that person i fall in love with my friends dont like... so id leave that behind.. n just go with it... i gotta choose which kind of happy or which reality i want to have.. i have the choice.. but im known to fuck 'em up...

........kayte

p.s. please leave comments if you know what i mean and think you know what to do.. whether you just know or you've been here b4.......